janet isn’t the only one who gets so lonely

the nite’s that i’m home not doing anything are the times that i feel lonely. well, maybe not lonely but i am acknowledging that i’m alone. i’m happy and feeling weird about it all at the same time. i’m happy that i have my own place to choose who and when it’s occupied by “outsiders”. but tonite i’d like some attention and want to cuddle with someone.

looking through my contacts, i don’t actually know of many that i would actually invite over to just hang out. i don’t even know where this craving for non-sexual intimacy with male’s has come from but it’s reared it’s ugly head. fortunately for me, i’m not acting on it. i should clean up my room, but i’m not doing that either! instead, i’m going to go to call it a nite and go to bed.